D.A.D.D.Y

Last week, papa wasn't feeling very well and i got so worried bile mama bgtau papa looked so tired and weak. At his age & with his workload, i am getting more worried. Last Wednesday, Haniz janji ngan papa nak teman pg klinik for check-up. But with swarming phone calls and emails, he still went in and out from meetings. The old chap never shows or complaints whenever he's sick. Mama managed to drag him out from office and headed to the hospital for ECG check-up d next day. The moment mama called me & explained his condition made my soul shattered and my heart dissolved. i started to cry. I called him. First attempt failed. I hang-up before he even picks up. Pretending to be ok were not ok anymore. 2nd attempt papa picked up. Upon hearing his voice, something stuck in my throat while my tears do the talking. He managed to put his 'macho' cap on and comfort me that he is ok. I dun trust him. the only thing that i managed to convey was "papa. promise me that u'll b ok ya. please." silence for a while "Ok. papa promise. Ayin..r u ok? dun worry ye. Nanti papa call lepas blood test mlm nanti." I nodded as if he could sees that. He promised me. I really hope papa will be ok soon. Thinking of taking a week off next month and heading home. But looking at d current situation. I can't take that risk. The financial crumple finally made its way to our shores and our company affected by it. nobody is immune now.

Alhamdullillah. Blood test ok. kolestrol papa tinggi skit and uric acid content pn tinggi. Other than that, die kata smua ok. But he told me, he needs to get second opinion. I thought he wants to see Mak Ngah & asks her opinion. Arini ati xsdapr, i gave him a called. no answer. called mama. Rupenye papa dkt IJN. Aku terkedu sekejap.. Rupenyer papa pg untuk set appointment for his stress test. The appointment is on 8th May. Knape xtrus buat check-up? Knape kna buat appointment smua dulu? 8hb tuh lg 2 minggu. Why? I can’t wait that long!!

5 minutes after that, i called Haniz. My first question "Shud i go back?". She comforted me and explained to me everything. She never fails to make me feel relieve. She has done everything in her might. She has done everything that i shud be doing as the eldest. I feel relieved a lot. Thaks sis. She has called papa's previous doctor & has all the info on papa's current condition. She promise to keep updating and monitoring my old man. I hope everyone will keep their promises. Praying & hoping my old man will be ok soon.People said when you have your own children, you dun want them to grow so fast so you can have them all by yourself. Not wanting them to leave and build their own nest. & always keep them safe in front of your own eyes. But it is also true that when you grow older you just wish your parents stop growing old as well. As you want them just like the old times, you want them around every time u laugh & cry, get to taste the fruit of your success, watching you through every path of life, to smile during your wedding day and to be jolly when your offsprings comfortably nestling in their arms. You just want them to be as they are. No sickness, no worrying. But Allah knows Best. And to Him i submit all my doa for papa.

"Our Lord! Make not our hearts to deviate

after Thou hast guided us aright,

and grant us from Thee mercy;

Surely thou art the most liberal Giver

- Ayah 8, Surah Aal Imran"