Ironi

Org kate org jealous ni xbagus. Org kate org jealous ni bukan sifat org yg baik budi pekerti. Tp cuba bgtau aku sape yg xpnah rase jealous? jealous tgk org lebih cantik, lebih byk duit, lebih pandai & etc..etc. tp smuanyer berkaitan dgn kelebihan org lain. well. manusia kan xpnah puas dgn ape yg ade. Fact 1!! manusia juga kurang melihat pd org yg ada kekurangan. Fact 2!!at this very moment..aku jealous..dengki..no-no. dengki is too harsh. iri hati. mild skit. haih. iri hati dengan

1) kawan2 yg sedang gembira menyambut atau carrying their first born, second or maybe third child. Dun get me wrong, am happy for u guys!! really am tp biaselah bile instinct sndiri brkata "aku ni ntah rase ke x.." hahahaha..tetibe feeling angelina jolie nk buat child adoption. i know..i know..diri sndiri pn kelam kelibut nk organise, ade hati nk organise baby yg comel itu. hehe. jgn terkejut tetibe ade my version of Maddox, Zahara, Shiloh, Pax, Vivienne and Knox. opps shiloh, vivienne & knox tuh anak kandung..ngeh!

2) kawan2 yg sibuk kawin mentang2 musim cuti skolah a.k.a musim mengawan dh tiba. nape eh aku jealous??jap aku pk..oo..sbb aku rase life cycle dyrng dh complete dgn status isteri yg disandang. yeah!! teringat perbualan aku ngn si zila ari sabtu lepas.

zila: ish..lamelah x tgk video2 kat *****wedding. nk tgkla..
aku: hmm..
zila: cantiknye pengantin ni. muka cam anak patung.

background: aku terima nikahnya ***** dgn bla bla bla..

aku: huh??tu junior i kt skolah dulu..
zila: hmm.dr senior smpai kengkawan ni dh junior dh ni. tetap xkawin lg. i ni anak buah pn dh kawin.
aku: sengih!!!!! :)

ok dh. itu sessi jealous aku yg telah diketahui oleh org awam. silalah judge saye. saye xheran. ngeh. i just want to be happy. with or without the most-sought-after-title tuh. if one day my path crosses with someone, Alhamdullillah i will embrace it. if not..it's not the end of the world aite?

bile my mind was occupied with that thoughts tetibe i got this email. read it. it's beneficial for me & for everyone..

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Your Provision and Your Life

Free your mind from the grief you experience as a result of worrying about your life and provision and make room in it to preoccupy yourself with the things you have been commanded with. Do not preoccupy yourself with those things that are inevitable regarding your life and provision, as both of them are linked to one another. So as long as your life continues, your provision will continue to come to you!

ironic bukan?? e-mail tuh agak pnjang. but this para hit me on the right spot..